Here's a beautiful comment on one of my videos from YouTube that really points directly at THIS:
@eleojay401 • 1 hour ago
Hey!
Thanks for posting this. Your introduction was very accurate formulated and pretty much pointed to what apparently happened to me for about 17 years ago.
Years prior to this "experience" I had read a couple of books (The Power of Now/ New Earth) by a guy named Eckhart Tolle. In his books he points to the present moment as the gateway to the true self, the "I" beyond the false mind created self. These books helped me to realize that time and the sense of a past and future was an illusion.
17 years ago I was lying on my back in bed, stressed and exhausted, and seemingly out of nowhere I pictured all the young men that stormed the Normandie beach under the 2nd WW. Something "clicked" when there suddenly was something "within me" that recognized that not only were there no one on that beach, but it never happened. What followed was the recognition that everything I had ever experienced was a mirage ..... it wasnt real. It never happened.
What happened next is impossible to describe. The sense of being a person disappeared, and all of the tension/ contraction in my body vanished, like a billion strings were cut over, and my body felt like it was floating above the bed. There was only "this"; no person, no sense of being separate, no "me" .... only the moment. There was no movement, nowhere to go ..... there was nothing happening.
It took me 10 seconds to realize that the laughter I heard was apparently made by me.
I have never laughed like that before.
For the first time in my life ( its not my life, off course .... just life) something knew that there has always been this moment, just "what is", and that everything else is an artificial reality.
"What is" can never be known, because then "we" would have to go outside of "what is" and look in, which is impossible.
There really is no separate individual, and only in the "dream" of being a separate entity is there a past, a now and a future, and an experience of there being a prior cause to what apparently is happening right now.
There is no you going anywhere. "What is" doesnt move. Only the illlusory "me" has somewhere to go ..... to make this moment more satisfying.
"What is" is nothing appearing as something that communicates with itself.
This is so obvious, but the separate individual can never understand this.
..... so it continues its apparent hopeless journey to understand what it can never get.
The immediate "now" is freedom!
I came home from work the other afternoon to find this precious trio (with mom) standing to the right of my driveway. They were so tiny! So cute!
In the middle of the night when your past misdeeds come back to berate you, you should do two things:
1. Honor the lessons and realize that it is because you're a better person now and be thankful of that!
2. See that persons who do harms against you and others are harming themselves more. Others are as yourself in the need compassion. Just as you needed compassion when you were in dark times, everyone needs compassion.
We are all a moment. We are not :that" moment, or a "future" moment. We are "this" moment!